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My Choice.
OK...i just re-read my last post. Dramatic much?
Thursday, May 08, 2008
But ah well... was just caught up in the moment(s). My wildest dream is still the same, though- to meet incubus. That will never change. Anyway, let's not go back there. So..anyway, yesterday I was talking..to Farah. And she was saying something along the lines of "....show me some love...." and I said "It does not exist in this world" And then a couple of hours later, a friend was texting me and she said that her dad said she was incapable of loving someone. And she was saying something along the lines of ".....i think he's right....." and I said "Aww c'mon. You gotta let loose. I think it's the only thing worth living for." And right now I'm thinking: Which one is it? This is the result of having two brains. Yeah I have two brains...It's just that the other one has a different name.The other brain is called a "heart". So. I have been saying this to myself so much, it's beginning to sound like my life's mantra: I am giving up on love. How i wish it were that easy. How can one POSSIBLY give up on love? Seriously... BUT.Those who have taken the liberty to be pessimistic enough to tell anyone who will listen that EVERYTHING in life has a bad side to it, (I'm dead ashamed to say this)..are...well...right. Yes, I've heard it all. "Love is patient, love is forgiving, love is kind, love is sacrificing, love is incomparable...." But. Love can also break you down and crush you to the tiniest particle that was once part of a wonderful creation. Love can burn a hole in you and scar you for LIFE and possibly be the cause of your death. Hats off to those who can disagree. I guess it's just the way we CHOOSE to look at it, like all else in life. It's the choices we make in life that determine our fate. Not fate itself. We determine our future and the life we want to live, the people we meet, the things we do, and the consequences that follow. Believe me, everything in your life was chosen by you. EVERY SINGLE THING, right down to that retarded toenail. :p And right now, I am choosing to LOVE. I will love like I was never hurt. And once again, I am succumbing to listening to my second brain-my heart. Fuck whatever I said before this. It is my new ligeance to pledge. Plus, there are too many lovables out there for me to give up... ;P Shannya Jotted Some Thingamagiks AT 4:23 PM
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Just A Pinch ,
I'd like to live on an island.
Where the sands are golden and the water turquoise.
Where the sun is my friend and the moon my guardian.
Where I am only with the people I love and people who love me.
Where music is the only source of oxygen.
Where I can do just about ANYTHING and nobody would give a fuck.
Where unnecessary, materialistic things are just that. unnecessary and materialistic.
Where money doesn't exist because we don't need it.
Where the air is clean and the sky always blue.
Where the only sources of light at night are from fire-flies and the stars above.
Where I have everything i want.
Where laughter never fades away.
Where illnesses are non-existent.
Where there is one race, one religion.
Where there is no heaven and hell.
Where I can sit around and have conversations with God.
Where I can sit around and have conversations with myself.
Where people are not afraid to say "I love you" and mean it ♥
Where nothing really matters.
I'm a dreamer.
So sue me.
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